In water we're born, in fire we die
In innocence we came, in corruption we lie
There is no black and white in our hearts
There is only neverending grey keeping us apart

...You took away my hope, you gave me despair
You destroyed me utterly, and claimed that you care
You never truly loved me, you taught me how to hate
You said I could do better, and called failure my fate

I cannot forgive and forget, not like this
I cannot let it die in pieces, not like this
I cannot take revenge, for retribution will find me
I cannot show emotion, nothingness is what I'll be

Emptiness is what's left of my feelings
Shadows is where I conduct my dealings
Deception is the web I weave
A wake of blood I shall leave

Because of you, I cannot trust
Because of you, I'm an outcast
Because of you, I'm living a lie
Because of you, I want to die

One can never love without first loving himself
Yet how can he love when he's never known love himself?
I grew up bitter and lonely, knowing only anger and hate
I grow up to be violent, forever trapped in this state

Monsters do not come out of thin air
Nor were they born, that'd be rare
Every monster was once a victim inside
Monsters know no one to confide

Each time I reach out to the light
You pull me back into the darkness
Each time I put up a fight
I descend into madness

I'm so sorry.
I'm so tired.
I don't want to live.
I don't want to fight.
I don't love anymore.
I don't care anymore.

Pain is all I feel
I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Anger and pain is better than misery
I'd rather be dead than to live with it

happy belated new year all!! haha, so long didnt update alr, been so busy... i have been thinking quite a lot these past 1 month... how a jerk i have been, how i have not put your feelings into my thoughts, everything that i did, was all so wrong, and now i finally understood why people hate me, its because of the crappy stuff that i said that pisses them off, i should think before i open my mouth... and i should change my attitude, not get pissed off and shout at my friends... they are my friends.. friends are for life!! i should cherish them...
found a part time job working with Yeo's now, carrying drinks lol.. found job with jasper, brandon, maizheng, jingjie and jiacheng... carrying the drinks are tough, but at least i can train some strength.. working till 1st feb.. O lvl results are coming out nxt monday, really hope that i would get ok.. as in L1R5 17 and below, i would be quite happy already, i dont ask for much since i know that how much effort i put in would be the result that i would get!!! well hope to post again soon, would be in the meantime, cause really no time to maintain blog!! sorry to those who are still visiting this blog i guess... no more tagboard... so hard for people find me, anything msn or facebook, u can always find me ^^

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name's alvin
i am living happily and alive,
don't be jealous
grow older every 11th Feb
Known to my frens as: vin/flamer
Graduated from JSS in 2010

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Love Maplestory & SoldierFront
Love reading manga & watching anime
Love basketball and bowling

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Hate ppl disturbing me
Hate ppl who kpkb/guai lan
Hate scammers & hackers

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